hey guys sorry that i havent updated in a while.. ive been real busy with yet again some more drama! lol yah its a peachy life dontcha think well yah everyone is talking to me and i dont want them to be lol if you catch my drift.. well see i dont know about you guys but im sick of people only thinking about me when they need help or when no one else is there for them.. and im so sick of people not caring about me when i care about them 100%... im sick of being used... im sick of being everyones friend and they think im just some one..i mean what more do you want me to say??

The End of it All--- in case you hadnt noticed i made it up and i dont care if you think it is the corniest thing in the world..but i needed to say that and i thought a poem would be the best way to describe it...

This is the end of it all

Im gonna sit here for once nd let you fall

im gonna see how you like it to crawl

and what its like to feel small

because thats how you make me feel everyday

in everyway

apparantly im not here

well guess what? ive put this game in second gear...

im sick of all this...

im surely not going to show you any bliss

and i dont care if you dont like this corny poem

well thats too bad.. you can make go make your own

because for once im not going to care about you

and im going to care about me

i want you to know how it feels too

i dont mean to sound rude but i just want you to see...

much love, </3 Ashleigh

hey-

    drama drama drama.. lots of things going wrong lately.. i wanna thank ashley and shannon and melissa and alex and chris and all of them oh and jenny for a great time last night it was so much fun i dont remember the last time i laughed that much in one night it helped me realize my true friends alot .. but now im gonna have a few quotes so people can realize what i go through and how i feel on a daily basis..i know it seems long but please just take the time to read them because they mean alot to me.. and i really hope that all of you who torment me will realize a few things

"starin out at the rain with a heavy heart..
its the end of the world and your mine
then your voice pulls me back
like a wake up call
ive been lookin for the answer
[ s o m e w h e r e ]..
i couldnt see that it was right there..
but now i know what i didnt know
becuz you live and breath
because you make me believe in my self  when nobody else could help.."

"let me be the one telling you its alright .... sharing the smiles and tears youve cried... let me be the one loving you when your weak... for all of the strength you need.. you can come to me.... when your down and you feel so lonely you turn around you can come to me when yore down baby i will be the only one to come to you... you can just be yourself cuz i dont want nobody else... all of your secrets are safe with me... for the kinda love you can trust.. for more then just a crush.."

"guess you never really notice what youve got till you finally realize it could be gone i know ive been taken you for granted for the longest time..all you wanted was someone who really cares and i didnt ever notice you were there.. but i promise ill never ever make that same mistake .. not twice..that was then this is now took some time to come around ..know what i wanna do.. try again show you how wanna kno what its all about givin attention to you i was a fool for way too long what you wanted i could not see.. that was then this is now it took some time to figure out that love is all you need"

sometimes i wonder if i should love him for what he was , hate him for what he did, or cry because he has changed me....

im not suppose to love you
im not suppose to care
im not suppose to live my life wishing you were there im not suppose to wonder where you are
or what you do,
im sorry i just cant help myself
i fell in love with you..

thinking about you is easy.. i do it everydaybut missing u is a heartache.. that will never go away..

i say im over you but im  [ n O t ]
i act like things r ok but thats cuz i dont kno wat i want
i like you so much but whats the point
my heart is burning i reached the boiling point
now- e v e r y t i m e - i see you i want to cry
cause i know i'll never have you so ..why try
you made me feel like ive  never  felt before
and im not over you yet .. yeah..thats for [ s U r E ]`

they say you only fall in love once..but it cant be true though.....  bcuz everytime i look at you i fall in love all over again..</3

look at me so desolate `nd [ c o l d ]
will things ever be the same
will i ever be loved
</3

hey!-

      Well, hm there has been SOO much drama going on lately.. and shannon is getting blamed for everything and it is totally totally not her fault AT ALL and i know that people are saying that it is your fault shan but forget them.. they dont deserve you then cuz you are an awesome people.. now onto a more "i hate the world" matter (lol) well see all of these people sit there thinking that they can judge me and stuff and well i mean who does that? you obviously are pathetic losers.. i dont care if you think i look like a dog.. i dont care if you think im as fat as a sumo wrestler.. i dont care.. because its not true.. so up yours buddy! well hm.. thats it for now i suppose so bubai ttyl lyl xoxo cya l8r

-ashy

yah this is my profile that im putting.. i really really like it and i hope you guys will too:

boy: i saw her todai

girl: i saw him todai

boy : it seems like its been forever

girl: i wonder if he still cares

boy: she looks better then she did before

girl: i couldnt help but stare at him

boy: i asked her how things were going

girl: i asked him about his new girlfriend

boy: id choose her over and girl im with

girl: hes probably really happy now..

boy: i couldnt look at her without starting to cry

girl: he couldnt even look at me

boy: i told her i really missed her

girl: he doesnt miss me

boy: i meant it

girl: he didnt mean it

boy: i love her

girl: he loves his new girlfriend

boy: i held her for the last time

girl: he gave me a friendly hug

boy:and then i went home and felt like crying

girl: and then i went home and cried

boy: i lost her

girl: i love him

</3  :'(

- i still do love him- if you are a friend you know who this is..

much love to all, ashy

hm.. well.. what to say what to say.. lots to say.. but do i wanna say it?? NO... everyone is pissing me off lately well not everyone just a few selective few and well see this certain "person" since hes stupid and doesnt deserve to even know me cuz hes a mean jerk but anyways.. this "person" did something VERY dumb and got his also stupid "friends" involved and i didnt do anything to them and they obviously didnt get that and did something RETARDED and we see now this "person" thing.. well he is trying to appologize to me but see the only thing that pisses me off even more so is that he is only saying sorry because im not talking to him.. that is the ONLY reason.. and truth be told.. i REFUSE to talk to jerks with jerk friends especially when me and my TRUE friends were trying to tell yew the freaking truth.. well im not going to waste any more of my time worrying about yew.. so bye